There has been a time when we spent our free time in our bedrooms
together with our journals, writing and thinking about the meaning of life in
quiet, comfortable boredom. When we experienced our subjectivity to great
extent, explored in its highest form either from reading poetry and its
ambiguities or from not understanding something.
Loopholes. Let’s read this word without its pejorative meaning. Rethink
it. What does it mean? A hole though which we may see light coming in and that permits eyes to observe. An ambiguity or omission that allows for escaping
something. Could it be the unquestionable objectivity we are escaping from? Our rational thoughts? Or reality as we know?
Loopholes. What can someone NOT say and consequently make us feel it is
about us, always? The silence of subjectivity. Always present. Loopholes.
Before the advent of internet, when we met ourselves alone, quietly,
with a book, we found those moments of subjectivity in the silence of poetic
metaphors. Who has ever read a poem and found not themselves there? Always in
the silence of the loopholes. I will find I there, in the cracks of the text.
From that moment onwards, even though with sane skepticism, I will believe the
author knows me better than my mother. Or do I know myself better than my
mother?
In the age of online social network, however, the
loopholes are in everyday written social interactions. It is very hard,
although a superficial window of interaction. What an acquaintance says indirectly
on his or her wall, may they know or not, will affect absolutely everyone that
reads it. Every single day, when we log in to the written reality of social
life and see a judgemental message
thrown onto their wall to no one and, at the same time, to everyone, how many
will suffer by finding in it their superficial I being judged? How can I not
find myself in it? It is a loophole! It is like asking humans to go against
their nature, by avoiding finding their subjectivity while dealing with the
unknown.
But what kind of silence do you think we humans should be focusing our
selves to reading or listening to? Superficial judgements sent out into the
air by acquaintances or deeply thought metaphors from a poem or poetic prose?
We hardly talk to each other anymore, as in debating and exchanging
ideas. We now throw superficial ideas, (judgements, stereotypes or citations)
and react. Still, our generation and the ones before and after are not equipped
to deal with a written reality. And if we can't deal with the ambiguities of
written text, without suffering with our subjectivity, how can we deal even
further with the ambiguity of reality itself? Now that we can have AI generated
videos that easily pass for recordings of facts and phenomena.
I think this is
time for us to rethink our educational system and the way we interact with
each other and reality. Interpretation has been and will always be key to human
development and personal happiness. And so our understanding of how the silence of words affects our subjectivity and the way it helps us construct our identities.
by
Karinna Alves Gulias